1) Why wouldn't you be on meds? Thought as soon as you've contracted they put you on a regimen.
2) What were your acute symptoms? Recognizing that everyone's symptoms differ and if you twist your brain enough you can convince yourself that a common cold is hiv.
3) Hypothetical assuming you never tested positive, but knowing the impact and what you've been through mentally and physically as a result of your diagnosis, and recognizing nothing is ever 100% (either through a condom breaking or an occasional slip in judgment), would you still monger?
I'm sure you're not the only pos person on here, so I applaud your efforts and hope others will find it inspiring.
1 I'm not on meds because with my cd4 level I don't need it. In the US they try to start people on the meds asap regardless of how their immune system is holding up. This is more to prevent others from being infected rather than what is medically best for the patient. I'n Europe the policy is to start when cd4 drops below 400 or around there.
I can start whenever I want but when I first have started I can never stop and the pills need to be taken on schedule every day. Skip a few doses and the virus mutates. There are also loads of side effects.
2 There was all symptoms in the book more or less except from rashes.
I had high fewer, headaches, muscle soreness (my legs where so sore it was painful to walk), vomiting and diarrhea.
But the one that made me sure was that I had a very sore throat and the soreness went all the way down the food pipe. So when I swallowed something it felt like my chest was exploding. Even yoghurt was painful to eat.
So when I was sitting there self diagnosing myself on internet (I know it's stupid better just go to the doctor) I could not find this symptom on any other illness. And I also knew what I had been up to off course.
I was also extremely weak and was home from the office for more than a week. The first day I went to work after I almost fainted on the sky train several times just from being exhausted standing in the crowded place. Two times on my way to work I had to get off the train and wait for the next one just in order to get my breath back.
3 answer: yes I would.... nothing is more fun than drinking and mongering